it stood proudly
at the edge.
but it trembled
ever so slightly
in the wind,
its petals quivering
as droplets of rain
enveloped it
with shards of crystal,
cold and beautiful.

the storms came
and tore at
its velvet petals
and some of it fell
crushed, beaten
on the damp ground.
but it stood in
beauty, at the brink
of blossoming --
fierce and defiant.

Avoid me now
I don’t want to
Hear you
See you
Feel you.

Hold me now
I don’t want to
Lose you
Leave you,
Forget you.

Smile my way now
I don’t want to
Hurt you
Pain you
Wound you.

Tell me now
I don’t want to
Ignore you
Hate you
Love you.

--- undated, late 2005

i miss things the way they used to be.
i miss words the way they used to be said.
i miss smiles the way they used to brighten days.
i miss hugs the way they used to comfort.
i miss laughter the way they used to sparkle.
i miss love the way it used to complete.

                                   --- Feb. 15, 2005

Where are you now?
It's been far too long
Since I've last held your hand
Heard you laugh
Listened to you talk
Your voice resonating
So deep and rich.

Where are you now?
It's been far too long
Since I watched you sleep
Your lashes fluttering
So softly on your cheek
Your full lips
Mischievous in a smile.

Where are you now?
It's been far too long
Since I heard you whisper
My name so reverently
Full of passion
And wonder –
Love in a word.

Where are you now?
It's been far too long
Since you visited my sleep
Fading in and out
Of my consciousness
So beautifully sublime
And wonderfully blurred.

Where are you now?
It's been far too long,
Far too long
You're too far gone.

-- May 22, 2006; 6:06 pm